So I told my mom about me ditching classes this year, and she freaked
(my parents like to pretend they’re understanding, but really, they are old fashioned in every way - they hate psychiatrists, despise alcohol, never ditched class and never had a life)
and I’m back in my eating-shit-crap, I realized
and I’m tired and exhausted from school-assignments that never end and never make me any smarter, they just make me realize I’m retarded
and I feel lonely, ugly and redundant.
I don’t really believe there is any light to this dark anymore
and I don’t know what to do about it.
It’s like I’m in checkmate.
